Mystery

I had my camera's SD card in the laptop when we went out Saturday night to eat and brought the computer along to do our budget meeting. After we were home and I went to my computer, the card was gone. I can't imagine how it could have just fallen out of the computer and yet the computer was in our possession the entire time. I have no idea where it could be. This card is our NJ history. I hope it turns up soon. I keep wanting to upload pictures or take more :(

Christmas musings

For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.

I spent a lot of the afternoon painting and coloring with Aaron. I decided to pull out my watercolors and just create. I ended up producing the above. I spent a long time trying to figure out what I wanted to do about people because I didn't think I could do them justice. I liked the empty manger but Aaron insisted it needed the baby Jesus. I debated what color to make the blanket and Aaron chose the blue. I was surprised when as I formed the blanket the Spirit touched my heart in testimony of the sacredness of that night and the truth of the nativity story. I am grateful for my Savior, Jesus Christ.

Boy Toy

Part of my creative itch is a desire to do something with the boys. Memory making. That's what I am after. I laid awake for a few hours in the middle of the night and used the time sifting through pintrest. I was looking for Christmas and kid crafts. By the next morning I found a gem - a catapult made from craft sticks. 

Jared looked at the picture very carefully, counted each stick and together we made our first catapult:

Aaron made one as well and soon battle ensued with lincoln logs as ammo.

I went to go shower and while I was gone Jared proceeded to make five more!! They played all morning long. I think my plan to make memories worked this day.

Birds

I have been in the mood to create and though I have plenty of projects I could finish, I wanted to do something new. I had high hopes for creating things this Christmas season, but have gotten a really slow start. I was searching through www.allpeoplequilt.com looking at the handmade ornament patterns and came across two that were particularly interesting: a star and wild bird ornaments. 

apqshop.com wild birds

I had hoped to get the pattern for the bird but discovered it would cost $5.99. I figured for $6 I could figure it out close enough. I dug through my stash of fabric and with Aaron's help began my version. 

My first task was to figure out a way to create a pattern. I thought about printing the picture displayed but it seemed too daunting to try and manipulate the sizing with the printer and scanner. It finally occurred to me it would be simple to do the manipulating with just the computer screen. So I zoomed in on the picture until I got the size I wanted, put my white cardstock on the screen and traced the bird like a transparency. 

Once I had my template it was pretty straight forward. Put right sides together, stitch leaving a hole to turn inside out, stuff and piece together. I did realize that the wings had to be sewn on to each side of the bird before stitching the body together. I also sewed in a ribbon on the top so the bird could hang like an ornament. My biggest challenge was getting the sewing machine foot over the big  poofy wings and having some rough looking attachment seams. I don't know how the designer was able to have no seams showing on the wings. It is a mystery. I thought about just doing a topstitch all the way around so that the seams would just be part of the end product and maybe give it a more finished look but decided against it. 

I have never made a stuffed animal before, but I think it isn't bad for a first time. Aaron was pretty happy with it :) The only thing I still need to do is give her some eyes and a family. 

I used polyfil to stuff the bird, but I am wondering if just putting a layer of batting would give it the filled look but also soften the poof enough to make it more like an ornament and less like a stuffed animal.

Savory Cheddar Bread

Savory Cheddar Bread

• Prep: 20 min. Bake: 45 min.
• Yield: 16 Servings

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Ingredients

• 2 cups all-purpose flour
• 4 teaspoons baking powder
• 1 tablespoon sugar
• 1/2 teaspoon onion salt
• 1/2 teaspoon leaf oregano
• 1/4 teaspoon ground mustard
• 1-1/4 cups shredded sharp cheddar cheese
• 1 egg, well beaten
• 1 cup milk
• 1 tablespoon butter, melted

Directions

• Combine flour, baking powder, sugar, onion salt, oregano, dry mustard and cheese; set aside. Combine egg, milk and butter; add all at once to dry ingredients, stirring just until moistened. Spread batter in a greased 8-in. x 4-in. loaf pan. Bake at 350° for 45 minutes. Yield: 1 loaf.

Nutritional Facts1 serving (1 slice) equals 112 calories, 4 g fat (3 g saturated fat), 27 mg cholesterol, 229 mg sodium, 14 g carbohydrate, trace fiber, 4 g protein.

Originally published as Savory Cheddar Bread in Country Woman May/June 1990, p31

Irony

Went to a Chinese buffet tonight and the fortune cookie said, "Happiness is activity."

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I am sure you have guessed by now that I am not keeping up with my running. Since Thanksgiving I did my training one more time and haven't done it since. I used the treadmill set on a slight incline and by the end I was totally popped. I walked the last 6 minutes. My desire has vacated leaving a note of guilt and an expanding waist line. I am sure I will have to start from scratch again. I was set to run my next 5k this week. This morning the dog begged me to walk him, and I would have acquiesced except that his leash and harness have disappeared upstairs where he resides these days.

I participated in a cookie exchange last weekend. Once again I ate all the cookies (but at least it wasn't 16 dozen this time - more like 2). Cookie exchanges are my nemesis. I do not bake cookies anymore unless there is a guarantee they are leaving the house because I have absolutely no self control. They are too easy to just pop in my mouth at the slightest thought or craving.

Weight watchers sent me their annual "we have a new program you should try for a discount" email. I don't think I am quite ready to go there, but my eating is out of control right now and with not exercising on top of it, I will have a big problem real soon if I don't get control of myself. I am already to the point that my jeans are tight so I only want to wear loose-fitting clothes. The problem with those kind of apparel is that you lulled into carnal security. When your clothes are squeezing the life out of you you are very aware of your body's size and want to do something about it.

I had started writing a post a few months ago about selfishness and never got to finish it. I wish I would have because I think I could use that kind of pep talk right now. The basic gist is whether it is selfish to take the time to exercise or selfish to spend the time doing other things that need to get done. I need to see things from the perspective that it is not selfish to take care of your body. It is like two selves battling it out - the healthy self and the careless self. There are a lot of balls that I have been dropping lately. I am reminded of the scripture Mosiah 3:19 

For the ^anatural ^bman is an ^cenemy to God, and has been from the ^dfall of Adam, and will be, forever and ever, unless he ^eyields to the enticings of the Holy ^fSpirit, and ^gputteth off the ^hnatural man and becometh a ⁱsaint through the atonement of Christ the Lord, and becometh as a ^jchild, ^ksubmissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father.

I need to get myself in order. I feel like hormones are playing a huge role in my ability to do that though. I spend at least one week a month in the depths of depression and by the time I recover I have a week or two to catch up before the roller coaster heads south again. I think I feel it so acutely these days because I am with myself too much. I need to get out of the house and see the sun, feel the air, be with other people and serve. (Of course my daily walks would help a lot and yet I hinder myself by not going. ) Blah.

Anyway, I need to do something so I must stop typing and get up and move.

Back on track

As this is Thanksgiving week, I have a lot on my agenda - especially since we are hosting family for the event. I had three tasks I wanted to accomplish today before the boys got home: 1) find the key to the storage unit (which meant cleaning out the car), 2) grocery shopping, and 3) exercise. I was concerned about having the time to do all of them before Aaron got home from school so I decided finding the key was top priority and hoped it would happen quick enough that I could still make it to the store. I realized that I could clean out the car and grocery shop in my workout clothes. I tackled the car but still didn't find the keys. The car was in pretty bad shape so it took longer than I hoped. But, yay for a cleaner car! I said a prayer and felt that the keys were in a safe place. I started emptying my purse and found them at the very bottom of a pocket I don't use. I am sure I put them there thinking they would be safe and know where to find them next time :p Well, they certainly were safe! By this point it was about 10:30. The odds of me being able to get the shopping done and back by noon was slim, as was getting to the storage unit. So, I decided exercising was next on my list.

Today's training 1 min walk/3 min run/ 8 sets (32 min)

When I cleaned out the car it was REALLY cold outside. My feet and fingers were stiff with chill. By 11 am though I felt like being outside. I decided to take ChiMax with me instead of using the treadmill. He was so excited and I was curious what the run would be like. The verdict is in - the road is definitely harder = a better workout!! I was able to maintain a decent pace but was very aware of the inclines and bumps in the road. In the middle we came across the guy walking his dog that I try to avoid, but I wasn't able to bypass him. I ended up spending a LOT of energy trying to reign ChiMax in on a few of my sets between the other dog and a small herd of deer we came across.

Set 1 run was hard but by set 3 I felt like I had a good rhythm and could maintain running if I needed to. Normally I reset the timer for each set but since the treadmill keeps the timer running continuously I decided to manage my run that way. It made it more likely I would start and stop on the minute instead of 'cheat' a few seconds here and there which was good. Unfortunately I think I lost count at one point and ended up running for 4 minutes because the timing wasn't coming out right. Between the extra minute of running and trying to slow ChiMax down I was really winded by the end. I gave myself an extra 30 seconds of walking before set 8 and though I tried to make it up with an extra 30 seconds on the end, I just could not do it. I was too tired and sore. My quads were feeling it today.

I think that not running first thing was really helpful. I feel like I accomplished something this morning even though I didn't accomplish everything.

Week 5 end

I feel like I am cheating my program because I have been using the treadmill though technically I am not. I was supposed to be doing 6 sets of 2 walk/3 run all week but on Wednesday I only walked Chi Max for 28 minutes around the neighborhood before Aaron's bus arrived because I was on the phone most of the morning and afternoon (much needed communication with a friend back home). I was in quite the hormonal funk all week up to that point which made motivation a real challenge. Finally by the end of Wed I was freed and felt more like myself.

I wanted to be done with my running before the boys left for school yesterday and the timing worked out that I could jump on the treadmill and be done in time to get the boys up and going. So that is what I did. I decided to challenge myself though so the first set I added an incline on the walk part then sent it back to position for the run and upped the speed to 5 mph for the whole training. I kept the walk at 3.5 mph until the last two sets and then brought it down to 3.0 mph. I had to talk myself through sets 4-6 on the run because the speed was challenging to maintain at that point. But, I did it. I could feel my left ham string? wanting to cramp on me but thankfully never did.

I ended up going 2.40 miles with that speed which I like to see. It is much more fulfilling than 2. I figure if I am using the treadmill then I need to work on increasing speed because it is hard to do that consistently on the road. I think the road is definitely more of a workout challenge because it is my own effort that moves me all the time. The treadmill forces my legs to move so it is not my own power motivating me. I do think it is a lot easier on my knees though. They hadn't bothered me at all since I started the treadmill last week. I thought it was because of the cushioning of the treadmill but then they started hurting Tues or Wed and Matthew informed me a cold front was moving in. It appears they may have quit hurting because the temp had warmed up. Perhaps I have a weather gauge in my knees.

I have been having this mental battle about using the treadmill. I LOVE the convenience of the treadmill. I like that I can listen to my music while I exercise. I don't have to go out in the cold. If the boys are asleep and wake up while I am exercising I am still in the house so they can find me and not be worried they were left alone. Did I mention I don't have to go out in the cold? I am grateful that it was not an option in the beginning because it forced me outside and allowed me to see the beauty of this area and experience it firsthand as well as meet people in my neighborhood. I would have missed out on so much.  It opened up the possibilities of a 5K and half marathon in my mind because I began setting goals based on distance instead of time. It empowered me. It gave me a chance to help the dog get his energy out and feel more loved. So all those reasons make me feel guilty about using the treadmill - especially the dog and the feeling of empowerment. I keep telling myself that I should enjoy being outside while I can and save the treadmill for when the winter comes for good. But if I am more willing to go down in the basement and get the training done in a timely manner, that is worth a lot to me too. So much of my morning is spent avoiding the exercise or recovering from it that my day is almost robbed from me... It is all a big balancing and juggling act.

Starting Over: Rookie 5K RUN Day 1 (week 5)

I am continuing my training by moving to the rookie training which is an 8 week training program that prepares us to run a 5K. I skipped to week 5 because the first four weeks are basically what I did in the 5 wk walk/run training. This week is a repeat of the previous week: 6 sets of walk 2/run 3.

Quite frankly I was in a funk this morning and had no desire to get my butt off the bed and do anything but veg. In the process I ended up discovering a possibility that got me all excited. Suddenly I didn't mind getting off the bed and exercising. As odd as it seems, one of the things that sometimes creates a mental hurdle is the idea of changing my clothes. I needed to do laundry today anyway, so I decided to run on the treadmill and not change out of my pajamas. Good enough (except for the dog who feels a little cheated and wanted a treat for my efforts afterward as if we had just done our normal routine).

I decided to start the 4mph/20 min program on the treadmill for a warmup, stop it when I was ready, and begin a manual program following the 2 walk/3 run training. It worked well enough. I realized this on Saturday, but it surprised me again to find that the 6 sets = 2 miles. Kind of disappointing because I was going further out in the neighborhood but I recognize I was actually going somewhere too and had to get back which of course adds more time. I read an article this morning about the differences between treadmill and outdoor running and it explained a lot about why I found the treadmill so much easier. Maybe I wasn't as bad off as I thought I was in the beginning - it just really is harder to run outdoors (which means a better workout too).  

Because of my hodge-podge run on Saturday, I have been trying to figure out my time for the 5K and realized the timing was working out on today's run to mimic it. So when I was at 1.80 miles I was on my last set. I kicked it up to 5 mph and ran until I made it to the 2 mile mark. Surprisingly, I hit it before my 3 minutes were up. I actually had 30 seconds to spare! So, if each set is 5 minutes and it takes 3 sets per mile, my time was approximately 45 minutes. Not bad for my first 5K :)

Race Day: Mission Accomplished

I have to say that my 5K didn't look quite like I thought it would. Matthew ended up having to work today which put a big kink in my plans for the family to cheer me on to the finish line down the street. The boys were sleeping so well, so I decided to try the treadmill. Part of me wanted to say forget about it, just run it on Monday. But I also wanted to run. So, I set up the treadmill. I couldn't decided if I should actually attempt the 5K or not so I decided just to start the 4 mph/20 minute program. The program builds you up to 4 mph and you maintain it for 6 minutes the come back down as a cool down. Well, I had gotten about a third of the way in and decided to go ahead and do the 2 min walk/3 min run. By the end of the 20 minutes I had done 3 sets and gone 1.28 miles. I figured then that it would take about 9 sets - 3 for each mile. As soon as the program ended I restarted the treadmill on manual and just adjusted the speed for each set. I had gone about .25 miles when the boys came down to the basement so they were indeed there while I 'raced'.

I experienced some interesting discoveries during my race. I figured my runs have been about 4 mph on the road. I was surprised to learn that the 4 mph on the treadmill was too slow! I ran comfortably at 4.5 for my sets and my walks were 3.5. Towards the end I did bring it down to 3.0 because I could feel my heart rate was too high but it was only for one or two sets. Since I restarted the treadmill in the middle, I was constantly trying to calculate how many more miles I needed to go to finish my 5K but just to make it simpler I decided when the counter hit 2 miles then I know I completed the race. With the restart, I was at 1.80 when I decided I just wanted to be done. I should have done another set of walk/run but instead I upped my speed to 5 mph and didn't stop until I reached the 2 mile mark. So for almost a whole quarter of a mile I ran at 5 mph!! I was so amazed at myself. It felt so good :) I stayed on the treadmill and slowly brought my pace down for another almost quarter mile. My total time with warm-up and cool down was 20 + 34:44 = 54:44 and my distance was 1.28 + 2.27 = 3.55 miles.

I think the treadmill experience was so much better because the terrain was so smooth and flat. When I am running around the neighborhood there are ups and downs and uneven surfaces and a dog to pay attention to. The other advantage of the treadmill is that it is constantly moving so I have to keep pace. Basically it helps me move along. The downfall is that the basement is very dusty. I could see me getting sick from trying to run and take in all that dirt on a regular basis.

I have felt really good all day after the run. My legs aren't too sore yet either though I am sure tomorrow they will be feeling it. I decided to keep up with the training and joined the 5K rookie program but starting on week 5. The first 4 weeks are the same as what I have been doing. Week 5 repeats the 2 min/3 min interval and then the following week it is 1 min/4 min. The 5K will fall on the second week of December. The goal is to run the 5K with no walking. We'll see how it goes :)

Gearing Up

Last night I talked to the boys about my 5K. I let them decide if I should run today or tomorrow based one whether they wanted to cheer me on or not. I should not have had any doubt that they would want to be there. They were so excited and full of questions: any one else going to race? (just me and ChiMax) how long will it take you? what is your fastest time? (50 minutes) do you need water refill stations? (I carry a bottle with me) who is going to win - you or ChiMax? (ChiMax. He'll be pulling me to the end).

So, it has been decided. Saturday, Nov 10th is 5K day. I plotted out my course and have started thinking about where my sets will hit. Because of a downed tree and power line on one of the streets I usually run, I have cut it out and added the one I normally avoid. I will have to take that street and the culdesac twice to get my 3.10 miles. My start is at the next intersection up and the end is just passed the boys' bus stop. I think it may take up to 8 sets. Maybe even 9. I hope I have it in me :p

I am curious how long it will take me. My 50 minute time was based on walking for 20 of them. I haven't done a full 3 miles since running for 3 min intervals because I wanted to be done sooner. I can feel my desire to keep this up waning :P

It snowed Tues night so the weather has had me a little concerned, but thankfully it has been warming up to the 50s during the day so the snow is melting. It does freeze at night and with all the water on the ground there is potential for ice in the morning. I think it will work out well for tomorrow though.

One to go!

Today's training: 2 min walk/3 min run/6 sets

After Monday's glorious beginning, today was hard starting out. I was feeling the minute and a half tire again but the sets went relatively quickly. I did set 4 up W instead of skipping it like I normally do because I could see another dog walker up the street. Yesterday I came across the same one during one of my final sets and the effort of pulling ChiMax away totally drained my energy so I didn't want a repeat of that. W is a long straight street. It took the entire 3 minutes to get to the end of it. I cut off the culdesac at the end of the neighborhood that I usually do and headed back home. I was pleasantly surprised to see that I was only out for 40 minutes but the track was only 2.46 miles. I will have to do F Friday to get my entire 5K.

I feel kind of silly for wanting this, but I kind of wish I was participating in a real 5K with my family there to cheer me on and take a pic as I cross the finish line. I thought about saving my run for Saturday so Matthew could be around with the boys to do just that but I also really like not having people watch me run and make a big deal about it. Got to get over my pride one way or the other I guess. But I must say that accomplishing this goal is huge for me and worth celebrating and memorializing on some level. I may just take a pic of myself and call it good :)

There is a nor'easter making its way up the coast and should arrive here this afternoon bringing rain and probably snow. Temps are supposed to get down in the low 30s. It was pretty nippy when I started out this morning but once the blood got flowing even my hands warmed up. The weather may play a huge factor in a Friday vs Saturday run. Now that Matthew has figured out a way to get the treadmill to work, I am liking the idea of using it all winter. The big complication for that is my running companion. He needs the exercise and opportunity to burn off all that energy he has. He is a powerful dog with a lot of energy to burn :p I really like the convenience and comfort of the treadmill. Decisions, decisions.

On another side - but relevant - note, my right knee started bothering me really bad last week especially when I would kneel on it for prayer. So much pain it made me nauseous. One night I was trying to sleep and just laying still with it straight out was uncomfortable. I was concerned that it would effect my running this week but so far it has held up. I tried wearing my knee brace Monday for my run but it was uncomfortable and not stable on the knee anyway, so I took it off. This morning my other knee was kind of bothering me too. I am wondering if it is the cold weather haunting my 9 yr old car accident injuries. If that is the case, besides being cold it is going to be a long painful winter :p

P.P.S. Yesterday I went to Goodwill to find some more jeans to wear because I have been wearing my one pair over and over. (Never thought I would be one of those people. No wonder dogs follow me ;) Anyway...) I am definitely still a size 16. My calves are getting shapely and my thighs are slowly thinning, but my middle is wear all the comfort food is. Until I start targeting my abs I won't really be making good progress down. I ended up with two pairs for $5. Not shabby for jeans I hope to not wear in another year.

To Stop is to Fall

Back in business. Oh how excited Chi Max was when he saw my running clothes!! I wasn't sure how my body would react to a week of vacation, but I was pleasantly surprised to discover it mostly did it good.

Today's routine: 3 min walk/3 min run/6 sets

The first run went amazingly well. I kind of figured for 3 minutes I should be at the end of the street, so I didn't look at the clock until I was close. I didn't feel a 1 1/2 min tire nor a 2 1/2 min tired. I was surprised when I looked at the timer and discovered I was already close to the 3 minutes. The second set went about as well though not as good. By the third set I could feel it a little more. The walk before the 3rd run I accidently went 15 seconds over, but as soon as I noticed it I started the run. Between 4 & 5 I got distracted counting my blessings and ended up adding an extra minute to my walk but the way I felt at the end, it probably did me good. Run 6 was a bear. I wanted to quit so bad at the 1 1/2 min mark, but I told myself it is just another minute and a half. You can do this. To the end of the street. Come on. Next time I looked at the clock it was 2 1/2. 30 seconds. I almost made it to 'the tree' but when I glanced at the clock I was at 3 minutes so I started walking. The movement from running (extremely slow jog) to walking almost made my knees buckle from under me. But, I made it!!

One of the sets had me go all the way around CC and to the next street. I thought about how that had been my goal before I started this training program - to eventually be able to run the whole thing, but to start with running continuously the straight part of the paths. It is exciting to think that I am almost there!! Well, I kind of am there depending on how my sets fall.  I am grateful I decided to take this goal seriously because I am actually achieving it because of the 5K and at a much faster rate than I imagined possible.

A concern of mine has been what to do when winter hits. Well, for me, this is winter. Oh I dread the 'real' winter. But it is definitely cold. From experience though, I know that once I start running I get hot. Today I dressed in a long sleeve shirt, short sleeve shirt, and a light knit jacket with a hood.     I debated whether or not to wear gloves because I was concerned at my ability to hit the buttons on my phone. I couldn't find some like I was wanting so I decided to just go without. When I got out the door and started walking I was afraid I'd made the wrong choice. But I pulled my long sleeves out and covered my fists until I walked long enough to start my sets. Sure enough, by the end of set 2 I was warm and ready to take my jacket off. I think I may be ok doing winter and continuing my training. But if not, Matthew figured out how to rig up the treadmill without it overloading the breaker. YAY!!!! I could really use some help with speed so the treadmill will be just the ticket :)

Yesterday Matthew brought up running a marathon next year. TWENTY SIX MILES?!?! I don't think so. I told him, let me get through this 5K first. He started looking at race opportunities for his birthday - 4 weeks away. I thought about it some more and realized I had been thinking about continuing my training and by Dec 1 I might be able to actually RUN the 5K with no walking. He is hoping that this goal would also motivate him to keep up his PT despite passing the test. I decided that maybe I could do a marathon by next year if I don't give up my training. I never thought this would be in my sights. Ever. I haven't made it an official goal yet, but I think it might actually be a possibility.

By the way, another storm is scheduled to hit on Wed. A nor'easter they call it. We will see if I can actually do the 5K this week :p

Hurricane Sandy 5K

So today was supposed to be my 5K day. I did nothing this week to prepare for it though I really could have followed through. So, next week I will attempt to resume my week 5 schedule. We will see what a week of not running does for me. Well, Tuesday afternoon we spent time in Princeton walking the University and I did encourage some races with the boys. It was interesting feeling my legs get in their running groove, but short sprints are nothing compared to 3 minutes intervals.

Staying Safe

Boo. Hurricane Sandy is on her way and my training is on hold. I could have run at 6:15 this morning, but it was a little windy ;) We'll see what the weather does over the next 48 hours to determine how set back I am.

Four Weeks Down, One to Go!

This morning I remembered there was a meeting at 9:30 at the school I wanted to attend, so no time for procrastination today!! I hurried out as soon as the boys were on the bus. I reminded myself how quickly I completed my 6 sets on Monday and that was great motivation. I walked back in the door at 9:11 which is before I've been getting out the door this week! So yay!

After set 3 I took an extra 30 seconds of walking but other than that I kept up the rigor. It was hard and I wanted to stop one of the runs, but I talked myself through it.

Next Friday is race day. I can't believe it is here already!!! The training is a little different in that Monday I get 3 min of walking but Wed and Friday I get 2 min. Running is bumped up to 3 minutes. I need to solidify my course so I can know how many sets to do Friday. Hmm. I just realized that Hurricane Sandy is supposed to land on Tues so we'll see how that effects my exercise. If it ends up as bad as people are expecting I may be delayed a week :/

Can you believe I was actually looking at the other training schedules to keep up this insanity? I could be doing another 5K in 5 weeks but completely running it instead of walk/jog. I have never been a runner so this is shocking that I am actually interested in doing this. We'll see how committed I am once the real cold arrives. I may be really wishing the treadmill worked here.

Something else I am pretty amazed at, per SparkPeople I have walked/run 10.21 miles this week and 34.09 miles since I started. Crazy!!! But awesome :D

Day off

Today was cross-training/rest day. Since it also happens to be Thurs which is Matthew's meeting day, I slept in until 7:15. Oh man did that feel great!!! As usual, I felt like being productive in the morning and decided to forego the cross training so I could accomplish something inside the house. I vacuumed, did dishes, laundry, put dinner in the crockpot, played for a long time with Aaron when he got home... It has been great!! I didn't feel like getting dressed today either, so I haven't.

I think the balance I am seeking is to take my cross-training days as rest days. Give myself permission to do something else I want to do - whether it be working around the house or getting out of the house. I will probably pay for it when I run, but there will be less things I will be wishing I'd be doing instead.

On a side note, I did actually feel like walking though. My legs are a little sore, but they also itched to be used. I love that feeling of having power in my legs.

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I did it but man was it hard. I can tell when I hit 1 min 30 sec because I am ready to quit. I have to talk myself through - One minute you can do it. 30 seconds. 15 seconds. After the third set I walked for 4 minutes. I had meant to run at 3 but the next minute passed before I even realized it. I  figure I am doing the 3 miles, does it really matter if I take some extra minutes half way through? I did not warm up the way I normally do so I don't know if that made my legs more tired, if it is just being tired, or if my attitude was dragging me down.

Catch up

I haven't updated for the last week though I have wanted to share my thoughts and experiences. I am procrastinating my training yet again. I know how challenging it is so I dread it though I have discovered I am quite capable of the task.

Wed, Oct 17th - trained at 6 am. I was surprised at how much I enjoyed the early hour. I didn't like how dark it was in the beginning but there was something peaceful about seeing most of the houses still quite for the night but a few with lamps lit. I discovered this was the hour of the rabbits. By sunrise the squirrels take over the yards. It was so nice to have my exercise out of the way and I could start my day ready to go. Because of the dark I decided to change my route a bit - came back down the street instead of cutting across the abandoned yard.

Sat, Oct 20th  - 7 sets. I had planned on going on Friday but Jared ended up staying home sick. I tried to go early but Aaron woke up and it just did not work out. Matthew had to work this day, but he didn't have to leave until 8:30 so I was able to get out the door by 7.  There are a lot more people out and about on a Saturday morning :/ I did follow the same path though and come back down the street, but decided to backtrack to where I would have cut across. I was so excited when I tracked my route to see it was 3.06 miles!!! I found my route for the 5K though I will need to go just .04 miles more. I was pretty proud of myself.

Mon, Oct 22nd - 2 minutes walk/2.5 jog/6 sets. Because I was procrastinating it was later than usual when I headed out. I ended up meeting a lady who just moved here in August from CA. We had a nice little chat and decided we needed to meet again. I LOVE this neighborhood!!!!! I kept my route from Saturday and was surprised when I finished my sets half-way through. I made it out to F and walked all the way back (20 min). When I tracked it the training part was just over 2 miles. I didn't like having so much distance to walk back so I will probably add more walking in the beginning to even it out. I had debated skipping the CC street on the way back but decided I should keep my body used to the 3 miles.

Today, Oct 24th

Last week I didn't do anything on my rest days and I think it made my training harder. Thursday night or Friday night I felt a switch go off inside and I no longer cared about the exercise. I could give it up but I am not because I want to finish this goal. I also know where I'll end up if I quit and I don't like that destination. My clothes still don't fit great, but I can tell there is some slimming happening. I do like that.

I am so tired which I think is really contributing to my desire to expend the energy to train. I am so glad I have this dog companion. Normally I would be in the middle of my route right now. Ten minutes ago he sat up and looked at me like, Aren't we going yet?!

Yesterday we went for a no pressure walk. I had no qualms with going as soon as the boys were on the bus. I didn't worry about time or miles until went to input it on my tracker. We stopped at the field so he could run around. It was absolutely beautiful to watch the sun rise over the fall touched trees and listen to the birds call each other. These birds and their songs are new to me. One was particularly intriguing. It was like listening to an instrument tuning. Simple, clear notes about five pitches apart. I came home and tried to find it on the piano. I think the pattern was G (half note) D-D-D-D (quarter-quarter-quarter - half). I wished I had the capacity to take that call and create a song with it.

Ok, enough dawdling or I will run out of time and then I'll really be in a fix.