Treadmill 5mph 30 min

I am really sore from my calisthenics yesterday :p My abs and sides ache.

I chose the 5 mph program today because I wanted the 30 minutes to log. It was hard, but I did it. Thankfully it was one minute intervals with a one minute 'break' at 4.5 mph. The distance was 1.81. 

Before when I've done the treadmill I spent the time reading scriptures or other uplifting things. Since the machine is in the basement and I can't find the large print scriptures yet, I was only able to read a little bit before having to put it down which left me with a lot of meditation time. I was thinking about my talk and all the challenges we've gone through, but instead of being humble about it I could see that I was marking off a list and came off sounding really .... ??.... insincere? non sympathetic? boastful? Not quite sure what, but I realized I was full of pride and need to humble myself. I have struggled to feel the Spirit and I think it boils down to humility. I have become calloused since the move and to protect myself I've closed off my heart. I need to forgive and love.

I was reading in 3 Nephi 13 and verses 19-21 (which happens to be the same as Matthew 6:19-21) really struck out to me. 

 19 Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where ^amoth and rust doth corrupt, and thieves break through and steal;
 20 But lay up for yourselves ^atreasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal.
 21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

I realized the counsel is to worry about the things of God more than the materialism of the world because the earthly treasures can be lost, but the spiritual things - like our faith, hope, charity, - can not be taken away. How we spend our time and energy creates who we are. I suppose I already knew that, but, as I said, it struck out to me today.

As I am re-reading it right now it is a great intro into the rest of the chapter as the Savior tells his apostles to not worry about the clothing and food because the Lord is aware of the need and will take care of it.  
33 But ^aseek ye first the ^bkingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.

Talk

I have been asked to give a talk on the 13th on how to show faith in the face of obstacles and challenges. Ironically, it is a very similar topic from my last talk. I was re-reading a lot of my posts in search of that entry and man I am amazed at myself! I need to start at the beginning of my blog and remind myself of who I am and what I have done. There are some really amazing insights and experiences documented. Yay for journals!

Day 2

I spent the morning trying to figure out the fastest workout to do and managed to spend more time procrastinating than if I'd have just done the cardioX video :/ By the time everyone was out of the house it was already 8:45 am, so I did dishes then made the mistake of looking something up on the computer and checking facebook (and MFP - my new addiction :p). Finally at 9:55 I started doing leg lifts and situps on the bed while watching videos. I did a total of about 15 minutes of various calisthenics. It really doesn't amount to much, but it is better than nothing. It's the most my abs have been worked on in months so it is better than nothing. My legs are still sore from yesterday. It is my intent to do the 5 mph/30 min on the treadmill tomorrow. I also want to make it to the grocery store before Aaron gets out so I really need to stay on top of things.

Matthew requested I take Aaron to the art museum tomorrow because that is his number one request every time an outing is mentioned. It never occurred to me to take him while Jared is in school. Isn't that sad?!

Here is how my food intake panned out today. I didn't end up eating breakfast and didn't drink as much water either. My fat went through the roof as a result of 9 Chili's tortilla chips. Isn't that awful?! But they are SO good!!

If every day were like today...   You'd weigh 176.8 lbs in 5 weeks 

Crockpot Santa Fe Chicken

Crockpot Santa Fe Chicken from skinnytaste.com

Really easy to make and good flavor. I used frozen chicken and it was ready in 6 hours. I had it as a taco and over rice. I preferred the rice. Avocado would have made a wonderful addition to it. We layered the chicken over rice and topped it with cheese, lettuce, sour cream and salsa. 1 cup is a serving, so I reserved my one cup and was able to make two or three "helpings" out of it for a total of 726 calories with all the fixings (1 cup rice, 1.5 TB sour cream, 1 c lettuce, 1/2 c cheddar cheese, salsa and one taco shell. We also had Chili's tortilla chips. That was bad. Blew my fat count way out of the ballpark!!)

Getting Started. Again.

So I began the challenge of keeping a food diary and working on my goal to exercise 3 times a week. I wasn't sure what I wanted to begin with, but convinced myself I could do it for 20 minutes. I got on the treadmill and did the 4 mph 20 min program. It turns out I need to do 30 minutes of exercise but oh well. Perhaps next time I will do the 5 mph 30 minute program instead. I am actually sore tonight. It felt good to walk out of the basement and see it was only 9 am. I knew if I hopped in the shower right then I would lose my umph and end up wasting the rest of the morning while I felt productive right then. I reminded myself I can work around the house before I showered - and I could even go grocery shopping if I had the time - so I did! I took care of the dishes, vacuumed the living room, read scriptures, and went through the grocery ad. By the time I was ready to update MFP (myfitnesspal) it was already after 10:30. I managed to get a shower in just minutes before picking up Aaron. I felt so productive! I was also very tired, but I felt like I accomplished a lot today too.

I was afraid to put anything in my mouth today because I'd have to calculate the calories :P Thankfully MFP has a HUGE database already so it isn't much of a challenge to do so. The biggest issue was remembering to measure out portions. After supper I was pleasantly surprised to discover that I still had 390 calories to use. I was so excited because man I still felt so hungry!! Here was today's totals:

I have only been looking at calories so I was surprised to see the red for carbs and protein. I guess I need to pay more attention to that....

As for my other goals, I am almost done with the spreadsheet and can't wait to start checking it off!

Edited to add:

I just got a note from MFP that says:

If every day were like today...   You'd weigh 178.7 lbs in 5 weeks 

It seemed discouraging until I realized that I am at 184, not 180.

Happy New Year!

Another year has come and gone. As is well documented, I have been struggling with finding the balance and motivation to exercise, be a productive member of the household, and find joy in the journey. I had the privilege of going to North Carolina this last week. It was soothing and rejuvenating to be in a clean, bright and beautiful environment. I told my SIL I could use a good dose of OCD lol I was also able to get a copy of my beloved cardioX so no more of those excuses.  

It is time for the annual Lettuce Eat Cake contest.  The contest has been moved from the weebly web site to myfitnesspal which is similar to sparkpeople and weight watchers. So, I find myself committed to a program with no game plan. I snuck on to the scale while at my bro's house and got an actual number to my weight: 184 - as I expected. I need to figure out a schedule that I could work with - and a menu plan. According to MFP to lose 1 pound a week my daily calorie intake should be 1540. I would rather not eat than count calories :p 

I decided to look back at my blog for motivation and insight. I started Weight Watchers Jan 2010 at 180 pounds. Sounds familiar. By the start of the first lettuce eat cake contest on the 18th I was already down to 177. I had a few tools to help me - Matthew was on board and practicing along side me, we had a working digital scale, I was already working out and I had friends to workout with. It takes so much time and effort - and a great desire. I need the true desire :/ Anyway, my original point was going to be that if I did it once, I could do it again. I am in the same place physically. I need to get there mentally. I should start with a game plan:

*Find exercise partners. 

(Ranita, Carol, send email to ward members)

*Use a menu.  

(Either repeat my blog menu or do the diabetic cookbook bc it has breakfast, lunch, and dinner planned out.)

*Exercise at least 3 times a week. 

(Mon, Wed, Fri)

*Be in bed by 11 pm 

(Boys need to be in bed by 8:30 so I can go to bed - which also means dinner needs to be ready by 5 - 5:30 pm)

*Buy a food scale

*Prepare an exercise space

"Other" ideas:

*Try Flylady again 

(Apparently I need someone over my shoulder telling me what to do and when)

*re-introduce the chore chart

*make family rules prominent in the home

 (want discipline to be based on rules broken)

*have consistent FHE and family & personal scripture study

*make date night a priority (at least once a month)

*get a new tablecloth

(I hate having a tablecloth on the table, but that is the way this family rolls. So if I get one that is more neutral maybe I can see the dirt better and be more willing to keep it clean)

*sew Aaron's shoe & Jared's scout shirt

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My internet went out while typing this up, so I decided to save it offline and ended up creating a goal spreadsheet so I can check it off as I go along. I also 'got off the couch' (or bed in this case) and cleaned the bathroom and put the first load of laundry in. I also ate 3 cookies. It's balance, right? lol oh man I have a lot of work ahead of me! :)