You Never Know

Sunday was fast and testimony Sunday. Most of the time when I'm moved to share, I am already to the point of tears and feeling pretty humble but this Sunday I felt a conviction to get up and share about the moving that happened this week as I read from the book of Alma that the Book of Mormon is truly the word of God reserved for us today and express gratitude for those men who wrote it. I went up feeling joy and tears were no where on the horizon, but by the end I needed a tissue. This is beside the point.

I honestly don't remember everything I said, but I do remember looking out into the audience and seeing someone whom I know has struggled with the church and testimony and was happily surprised to see this individual and also caught a wiping away of tears as I spoke. I received a text from this person today thanking me for my testimony and that it touched them deeply. I noticed a post on facebook from this person today referring to a recent change of heart, and it warms me to think that I had a small role in being an instrument in the hands of the Lord.

Some things I do remember sharing that I have felt as I have taken the 40 day BOM reading challenge:

-Because it is a challenge to read the BOM in 40 days, I am often behind so many of my spare moments I am immersed in the scriptures trying to catch up and this has been a benefit to me. I have definitely felt a difference in my ability to feel the Spirit as a result. (Kind of more like my old self)

-Nephi is often looked at this amazing good guy whose likeness is unattainable, but what I realized is that besides studying the scriptures and praying, he recognized the hand of the Lord in his life and that is where his greatness came from. He was able to come to a point where he could trust in the Lord absolutely. Likewise the Lord could absolutely trust him. It was mutual. Nephi was willing to do whatever the Lord asked of him because he knew he could trust Him and the Lord would help him.

-Since I've been studying the Old Testament as well, I've been able to see the Nephites in a whole new light since they were living the law of Moses. I realized that Sherem believed the law of Moses saved them, not Christ. He was like the Jerusalem Jews who missed the symbolism.

- Alma 32 teaches about faith, but 33 teaches that is in Jesus Christ that we should have faith and 44 teaches it is because of the Atonement.

- Later in Alma we learn about the resurrection and what happens after we die. And it was as I read these teachings of Alma and Amulek I realized how vital the Book of Mormon is to us in this day. We live in a very complicated society, but the answers for clarity are in the BOM. It is plain. So easy to understand. I want to share this with my friends who don't have a clear understanding because it brings peace. So much peace when the unanswered questions can finally be put to rest. I am so grateful for these men who wrote their testimonies and experiences so that we could have them today when we desperately need them. And I am thankful for Joseph Smith who also trusted in the Lord and did his part to bring them to light.

I know the Lord keeps his promises - even if it is years in the making.