Random Rant

It doesn't matter what size a person is - everyone gets uncomfortable when their clothes don't fit as well as they once did. Sometimes I can look in the mirror and see a skinnier version of myself, but I usually avoid the mirror and just go on the way I feel in my clothes. Over the last few days I can feel fatness. Today my pants were even a little bit snug compared to the way they've been fitting. I really don't want to backtrack, but I am struggling against the tide of apathy. Yesterday I wanted to eat all day long. I had Matthew pick up pizza on the way home for dinner and I let all restraint go and had 2 1/2 slices even though I only had points for 1, plus I had a cookie in the evening. I decided to give myself a mental break for the week and allow myself to use my weekly points. So tonight I ate a fudge poptart. Yum. I'm afraid though that I'll loose the ground I made in getting to the 150s.

I have been feeling so full after eating that I'm having a hard time gauging if I'm overeating or if it's just that my stomach has shrunk enough that I feel fuller faster. I look towards weigh in day with anticipation - either it will verify a shrinking stomach or an overindulgence.

I go back and forth about how much of a workout my walking routine really is. We have been walking 3 miles in about 50 minutes. It has a few smaller hills and one fairly steep hill. It's between a low intensity and moderate intensity workout. We've added an extra loop to the course which is about a mile, so we're walking longer to help compensate for it. This week another friend decided to join us. She has a longer stride than us, so I've found the two days she's walked with us that we have been pushing the envelope. It's been good because it's been too easy to walk at a slower pace. I was really feeling it today. Maybe I've been hungry this week because the exercise has been more strenuous, but I doubt it.

Here's hoping I really am making progress and not backtracking!