Re-evaluating

Recent comments/conversations about my current stature gave me pause to look in the mirror - which I rarely do with true scrutiny - and wonder if I should re-evaluate my weight loss goals. I have heard, 'You're just skin and bones' and 'if you lose any more weight you'll look sick'. My response to the skin and bones comment is, I recognize that in parts of my body that really is the case - like my shoulders and across my upper chest and my face/neck - basically my upper body, but that is not where the problem area is. The weight is hanging around my upper thighs/hips - saddlebags - and belly. And then I show them my arm flap lol. Anyway, so I was wondering if 'they' were right. Am I skinny enough at this point? I think I could be ok with my belly. I think part of its current state is the result of having babies. I could live with it. My thighs, eh, they've been this way since birth. There's a reason my brothers called me thunder thighs. They have come down in size quite a bit, but no, I really am not satisfied with their current girth. Last night I was talking with a friend who ran into the same situation when she had lost weight. Ironically, it was about 155 pounds - about right where I am. Well, after today's weigh in, exactly where I am. As we discussed this issue, I explained that 150 is my goal, but I set WW at 140 in hopes that my weight will level out about 145. I realized in that moment, that if 150 is my bottom threshold, I will bounce back up to 160 with time. If I set 140 as my bottom threshold, then 150 will be the top and I will be in the range where I am satisfied. Basically I reaffirmed my goal - and after watching my weight trend for the last week, I need to keep going. It is the first week of summer and I'm already back where I was two weeks ago.

It's been suggested that maybe I need to do less cardio and more exercises that target my specific problem areas. I think I agree with the needing to target those trouble spots more. And as those areas shrink, the number on the scale will too. I guess that means I need to keep up my P90X :p I did it on Monday, but that was it. I just couldn't bring myself to do it the rest of the week. But I know from experience that it is what my body needs. ugh. lol

My exercise has been spotty this week. In the past when I've overeaten I'm able to soothe myself with the fact that I'll at least be exercising in the morning - or had exercised that day. But with the lazy days of summer, I can't depend on that excuse. Last night I indulged myself. I had the points for it too, so it isn't that bad, but I haven't had the consistent exercise this week to keep the weight-loss momentum going. The result was a 2 pound weight gain from last week. After my re-evaluation and realization that the only way I'm going to keep from backtracking is maintain some semblance of exercise, I guess I better 'just do it'.